It's funny how people pray for things they think they want and then when they get them realize that maybe they didn't want it so much. Ok, not they - me. But it's a not uncommon phenomenon. For my whole life I've wanted a farm. I never thought it would happen that I would own a farm complete with farm animals. But it happened and for the past 4 years Dave & I have been working on getting the farm back in prime condition. It's a tough job....a long term project.
However, what I have come to realize is that the farm is also an answer to prayer, the prayer for spiritual discipline. Boy - be careful what you pray for. It has taken a while but I now realize that by having the farm, I am working on my spiritual life at a deep level. I have come to the point where I find it difficult to keep up with some of the work but it's occurred to me that that's the point. It's not easy to stay focused and committed to things that take great responsibility and aren't always fun but it's necessary and important.
So, while my writing discipline still isn't to the level I would like it to be, I realize that I am working on the issue of discipline and focused commitment in the ongoing care of our animals and farm.
Ok - it's late and I need to go to sleep but I wrote what I needed to.
Maybe more will come tomorrow. Or Friday - or sooner or later.
